One word threw me when I read this Lesson--attack. What do they mean by "attack thoughts?" I don't lie around thinking about attacking people or them attacking me. How does this apply and how do I use it? As with so many of these Lessons, I have to stop and think around my knee-jerk reaction to what it really means, or think of a different meaning for the word and then it makes sense.
Attack thoughts are not only the verbal denotation but any thought that springs from the fear side of the spectrum. People lamenting how horrible the world is are having attack thoughts. Those who want to change the world and all the people therein are also having attack thoughts. We have to understand that the things we see are nothing but the results. In order to change the results, we have to start with the cause. The cause is our thoughts...each and every one of our thoughts. We have to start with ourselves. We have to change the source to change the outcome.
We often lament about the world out there, the world we perceive, yet we never really see ourselves as the image maker. We are created in the image of God. God created man so that he/she may create man. We have to take responsibility for the world as it is and as we perceive it. We cannot be saved from the world but we can escape the cause. This is salvation. For where is the world we see when its cause is gone? If we envision the images alight with love and transform them into things and people we love, we are changing the world, even if those images are made from hate.
We are not trapped in this world we "see" because we can change it's source. As with everything in life, identification and letting go is key. Then it can be replaced. Willingness to do so is paramount. I struggle with this on a personal level.
There is a member of my family that is so negative and she holds onto that negativity like a lifeline. She seeks help and when solutions are offered, she takes great joy in rejecting each and every one of them. I realize this is her choice but it frustrates me so much. There is a solution for every problem if only we are willing to accept them. I find it very hard to be around this person because of her negativity. When I stay at her home, I have nightmares because the energy of the home is so dark and so penetrating. In these nightmares, I cycle through her life and her negativity, her insecurities and worries. Let me tell you, they are horrible! I have chosen not to live this way and I reject it. I want to help but it isn't welcome so I let her be. Yet I can't...she is my mother. I live a life so that I have no regrets and I don't want avoiding my mother to be one of them. The Lesson tells me I can change this if I change the source--myself.
I need to remove my tie to the outcome. This is her life and she is leading it the way she wants. Where it crosses the line is when it affects me and only I can choose to allow it or not. So, if I envision her surrounded by love and light, the Lesson says I will achieve a transformation in my perception and thus my reality. I work with this constantly and can usually achieve it. It's holding onto the achievement that is difficult.
My mother has a way of circling around and poking at everything until it folds, or until you can't take it anymore and blow up. Then she has another lament in her bucket to dwell on. But here I go, dwelling on my perception, on my issues. I MUST CHANGE THE SOURCE AND THE SOURCE IS ME! This will be the only way I can make peace within myself and my mother, whether she accepts it or not.
The Lessons are always personal, whether we accept that or not. Some are more challenging than others. Yet I/we must give up the challenge in order to succeed.